Faithnoun1. complete trust or confidence in someone or something2. strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof.Apprehensionnoununderstanding, grasp
I hadn’t planned to write about faith today. But that’s how it goes, right? Life throws you things you don’t plan for and you just have to keep rolling. I sure wasn’t planning on having my day rocked yesterday by the news that a shooter was loose in Navy Yard, about 1.5 miles from my home (and a site where I have two friends who were working). Yet, here we are. Dealing with another tragedy, attempting to answering more hard questions and wondering why.
But yet…even today, I have faith. I know that God exists and I have complete trust in Him and His plan. It is always easy? NO. One thing I learned early on is that to have faith means to be comfortable not having all the answers. Um…I am NEVER comfortable not having the answer. I’m a lawyer by trade and I want all the information, all the time. I am detail orientated and definitely type-A and don’t do well with ambiguity.
But yet…I have faith. Even though it goes against everything my logical brain thinks, even though it means I don’t have answers to hard questions, even though I may never understand so many things (ack – it is SO hard to accept the not knowing!) – I have faith.
How? Well, as logical as I am, I know that life just isn’t random. I know that there is more to life than waking up, going to work and going home. I know that there is more. I know that the “luck” I’ve had really isn’t luck. Some of this knowledge is just inherent and some of it is reinforced by sharing my life with a community of folks at my church.
I truly do believe that it’s important to have something to believe in – something to count on when things get difficult or when you feel like you have nothing to hold on to. For me, it’s my faith.